me @ 12.05pm @chem e class : sooo hungry.....

my stomach @ 12.07pm : krucuk krucuk...

me @ 12.10pm @ chem e class : I've got organic class another class at 1230. I better skip the last 10 minutes and go grab something before it starts. I don't think I can survive without food til 2 pm.

me @ 12.10pm - scurrying to the pizza stall.

me @ 12.15-12.30 - munching and digesting my pepperonni pizza while talking at the same time to some ppl. Trying to chew as few times as possible before I can swallow the bites.

me @ 12.30pm - running to my organic class knowing clearly I am in danger of getting appendicitis.

me @ 12.33pm - in front of organic lecture hall.

me @ 12.33pm talking to myself: NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! He already locked the door!!! Darn it!! Only 3 minutes late!!!

Note to self : Eat your breakfast.

~Huuuu.....~

Hua.... kepengen nangis rasanya... kenapa ulangan dan peer begitu banyak.. dan kenapa meskipun dibaca berulang2 tetep ga ngerti... pengen mengeluh mengeluh.. mooooo... eh itu melenguh.. Ya pokoknya lagi pengen complain2.. Haiiiih.....pengen cepet2 weekend... kenapa begini..padahal baru selesai break..

Yak ternyata menyenangkan juga untuk sekedar ngomel2.. Maaf bagi yang sudah membaca, saya sudah membuang waktu anda....

But thanks for listening though.. hehehe...

~Retreat and Randomness~

The T-shirt design by Marketing Team:


Everyone:

My discussion group:

The place:

Bonfire:

Just somehow feel obliged to at least give a follow up post about my first retreat. Hmmm... I have been sharing this to several people, thus I'm a bit lazy to reiterate the whole thing over again. Above all, it's pretty personal (uuuu secret secret...) and I think it's a bit inappropriate to blog it.. Malu lah...hehehe... Well to cut the long story short, basically I just questioned a lot. Perhaps, it's the first time I've ever think of even questioning since up until this time I just take my belief for granted. I even surprised myself by questioning existence of God. But I think it's good to try to find the answer and hopefully I'll find it soon enough. And I just wanna say thank you for those in my discussion and devotional group for the great talks!! And especially to Aldo for the additional intense discussion on the way home.. Not intending to add to the already existing pressure or anything, but I think you'd be the coolest priest ever.. hahahaha... (evil laughter)..

Anyway, being a bit random here, I found something ironic in the supermarket yesterday...

Another randomness... I cooked a delicious meal for lunch today.. Or at least it tastes delicious to me. I wanted to cook fried rice but I was bored with the one I always cook so with a bit of creativity and using only what I have left in my fridge, I made "THE ULTIMATE
FATTENING FRIED RICE WITH A LOT OF CABBAGE TO REDUCE THE GUILT". I used a lot of butter and a slice of cheese which explain the "fattening" part and of course as the name already states, I threw in all the cabbage that I had. It's my lunch, my dinner and gonna be my brunch tomorrow. Nice.

Another random quote:

"Forgiveness is the movement of the heart that recognizes the humble fact that we all mess up"

~Spring Break Is Here!!!!~

Nothing new, just feel like shouting... Spring break is here!!! Gonna leave at 2 pm for ICF retreat 2007..So excited! But I haven't packed at all, haven't vacuum my room and wash the dishes, haven't bathed and it's already 1230pm. So I better do all those stuff now and stop talking nonsense in my blog.

Wheeeeee!!!

It takes a cup of courage to show your tears
One bowl of boldness to reveal your fears
A pinch of humility to know you're a faulty design
To finally accept that you're the sinner kind

It's alright to be afraid
Our hearts are meant to pound hard
There's no wrong or right answer
When you have nothing to hide

I'd like to see you swallow your pride
Remember that this journey is an undulating ride
You're bound to strip naked at times
And lose the only thing you call your life

Now that you have nothing left to defend
No place to call home
No number worth calling
No one worth caring
Know always that it's never the end

Let it go but please stay

You have nowhere to run to anyway

And maybe, just maybe

The only thing that remains

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be

Will wipe away the tears

And wash away all fears

When you take that pinch of humility

To finally let everything go..

~Ring of Fire~

Last night at a little before 11, my mom called me saying that she just felt an earthquake. I didn't panic or anything coz the fact that she called me alone shows that everything is fine. Little that I know that an earthquake of 6.3 on the Richter scale shook West Sumatra, the province just beside mine which I used to visit twice a year to visit my oma when I was still living in Indo. FYI, it has killed 70 people up to date and the death toll is still counting since there are those beneath the landslide that followed the quake that are not yet found.

If you're wondering why these quakes happen so many times in Indo, well it's because Indo is
located on the so-called Pacific "Ring of Fire," an arc of volcanos and fault lines encircling the Pacific Basin. And I guess the volcanoes are having a huge conference these past 2 years.

Ada peribahasa Indo, "Sudah jatuh, tertimpa tangga pula". Directly translated, it means after you fall from the ladder, the ladder falls on you. But I think for Indo, it's not only the ladder that falls on her but also the whole wall crumbles down.

How to fix it? I can't think of where to start.

Anyways, just for general interest, I found a list of the recent natural disasters in Indo.

• March 6: An earthquake strikes Sumatra Island, killing at least 70 people and damaging hundreds of buildings.

• March 3: Landslides triggered by days of heavy rain kill at least 40 people in eastern Indonesia.

• Feb. 1: Rivers in the capital, Jakarta, burst their banks, submerging parts of the city in water up to 12 feet deep, killing 57 and displacing 450,000.

• Dec. 29, 2006: A ferry sinks in a storm, killing more than 400 people in the Java Sea.

• Dec. 23, 2006: Heavy rain touches off floods that kill more than 100 people and displace over 400,000 on Sumatra.

• July 17, 2006: An earthquake triggers a tsunami off Java island's southern coast, killing at least 600 people.

• June 19, 2006: Floods and mud flows kill up to 300 people in southern Sulawesi province.

• May 27, 2006: An earthquake in central Java kills at least 5,800 people and injures more than 36,000.

• May 2006: A series of explosions spew hot ash down the slopes of Mount Merapi, forcing 15,000 villagers to flee.

• May 2006: A mud eruption at a drilling shaft on Java displaces more than 11,000 people and inundates villages and factories, spewing a million oil drums of muck a day.

• Jan. 4, 2006: Some 200 people are killed in a landslide on Java.

• March 28, 2005: More than 900 people are killed and tens of thousands are left homeless when an earthquake hits Nias, Banyak and Simeulue islands off the coast of Sumatra.

• Dec. 26, 2004: An earthquake sets off a tsunami that kills more than 160,000 people in Indonesia, mostly in Aceh province on Sumatra.

Source: Yahoo News

Finally, all the tests are over. I'm disappointed with myself though, coz i know I could do better that what I did. I just didn't put enough effort.. Why did I have to browse the Internet for hours when I didn't even have any particular subject to search? Why did I have that mass cooking when I know I haven't finished studying? Sigh.. (here comes the regret).. This stupid little girl never learns her lesson.. huh.. anak yang bodoh.. tidak pintar membagi waktu..mengecewakan sekali.. (then comes the self-deprecation)..

But anyways, let's put all that behind becoz Spring break is coming!!!!! I'm counting down to a week of freedom and relaxation. After those never-ending homework, finally I'll have time to breathe, to sort the contents of my brain, to indulge in a long due book-reading, and of course shopping trip. Also, at the start of the break I'll have a 3-days retreat in Waco. I'm so looking forward to it!! It's gonna be so much fun!! :)))))

Well, I always associate spring break with crazy roadtrips to beaches where you would lay on the white sand all day to tan (or to get skin cancer), coupled with the beach parties to show off those abs you've been working on the whole Fall semester.But, that's not gonna happen for me. Haha.. I'm not so westernized I guess.. A refreshing, quiet, peaceful yet fun, fulfilling and well spent holiday with friends would be enough for me.

Hihihihihi just feel so happy these few days for no particular reason, and now thinking about Spring break makes me feel happier...

Note:

An old guy is using the comp on my right and he's been breathing heavily
for the last 20 minutes. I wish he'd stop doing that coz somehow I feel
suffocated myself.

Random Lyrics:

I can see things
That you walk right through
And I listen to the lessons lost on you
In your race to escape the truth

~On Integrity~

I took Organic chem II test last week and found an interesting statement from my prof on the cover page. I shall quote..

"This evening you will take two tests, one in chemistry and one in integrity. I want you to get A's on both of these tests but if you are to fail one, let it be the one on organic chemsitry"

~ Grant C. Willson

I didn't do well on the organic test although it wasn't a failing grade, but just for some consolation, at least I passed the one on integrity.