Seriously? The last time was July? So, yeah, I guess this entry is long overdue. Pretty obvious from the spam comments all over this blog. And finally, here I am, out of boredom at work decided to blab for a while :). It's Friday night and as usual I'm in the METER lab having a night shift. I always promise myself to get something done during my Friday night shift, and not once has that happened. The heart is willing, but the flesh is weak, you see.
I am having my last exam tomorrow night and in four days, I'm heading back home. Oh, I can't wait to be home. Last year, my dad said that I haven't changed a bit. All the Singapore and US experiences, all the money he splurged to give me a high-end education, and the many years marked by blown candles and weight gain, haven't changed me. Really, Dad? I feel that I HAVE changed, though, hopefully for the better. But, I do realize that once I'm back home, I retreated to how I was about 7 years ago. I forget that I am 22, drive a car, and almost graduate. I forget that I'm supposed to be a mature lady, who has been well-educated, strong-willed, opinionated, and has seemingly important goals to reach. Once I'm home, I feel good to just be the youngest in the family and throw all responsibilities to my sister. And once in a while, I hide behind "teenage hormonal reasons" as an excuse for waking up at 11 am. Haha, yea right, more like pure laziness!
But, believe me, I have changed. I just don't really show it to my parents, so the way they see it, I'm still this 15 years old girl who wants to be a librarian, kindergarten teacher, police woman, and build a potato chips factory all at the same time. I know more about life now. I've seen some drama, I've tasted some hardwork, I've felt uncertainties. I think about them, and I act on them. I maybe naive at times and I still want the world to change into a giant Disneyland. But, I've grown quite a bit. So, give me a break if for a month in a year, I turn back to the girl who clings unto her mom's apron and forget that the world is still patiently waiting for her works. Home, here I go!!!
Okay, I've got to chase some people out of this lab, now. Time's up people! Got to shut down the lab.
8 comments:
Yay! A new post....Woohoo! I really understand where you are coming from, Vid. Emang kadang2 susah buat ortu kita untuk ngeliat kalo kita tuh udah umur 22, bukan the oblivious young teenager that we was then. Emang bener sih, kalo udah balik indo rasanya pengen manja2an, dll. Tapi menurut gua, kadang2 ortu kita juga masih belum siap untuk see us the way we are now. They still think of us as the mindless child, ignorant teenager that we were.
Give it time, and they'll see the change in you.
PS: Kalo menurut gua sih, elo udah berubah banyak sejak loe dtg ke Austin dulu :)
ehm, potato chips factory?
Waaah berubah banyak ya Mel.. hahaha terimakasih!!! :)
Yes, Law??? I had a bunch more weird ones back then..
potato chips factory sounds cool... seriosly! :) when will u graduate?
nice new layout! reminds me of pushing daisies. this entry is very vidi. dari luar loe tuh child-like but there's an old soul hovering inside. btw tagboardnya udah dibuang ya? gw jg pingin buang nih soale isinya jg spam doang...
gw graduate next year, Law.. May.. if everything goes oh so smoothly. Lagi di semarang ga Law? Gw bakal ke Semarang loooo!!!
Hehhe iya loh, diliat2 kaya pushing daisy, then I wonder.. apa ini emang pushing daisy? tapi kayanya si engga.. haha can't you say mature soal instead???? Gw jadi berasa nenek2 trapped in a young body gitu.. well.. actually ga gw buang sih.. when i changed the layout, they threw away the tagboard.. contemplating whether i should put it back or not now..
You still need to post that promised follow up to yuir Richard Dawkins post! chop chop!
Can we forget about that already?? hehehe... I should not make any promise in the future!
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