Blast from the Past

I found this piece of writing in my google doc. Something that I wrote in September of 2008, apparently when I was working in the computer lab and waiting for my shift to end or something. Now that I try to think about what was upsetting at that time, I could not remember. Maybe it was the period where I had to apply for graduate schools or it was my time of the month. Reading it now kind of make me want to slap the whiny, self-centered, and ungrateful little brat that I was at that particular moment (or am now too, sometimes). Funny how you read what you wrote long time ago and just thought to yourself: what was I thinking???

Anyways, here goes:

Why does life throw you with all the dramatic stuff

Like when you always are the faithful listener
for all the love stories that you friends experience
but never got one for yourself

Or when your life plans seem so blurry
With no light at the end of the tunnel
And you are walking in blindness
Trying to comfort yourself with empty words
And merely stepping ahead into unpredictibility

Or when all you do don't seem to be appreciated
but you do them anyway
because you don't know what else to do
Or when you are far away from what you really love
And you wonder when are you going to reach there
If you ever going to

Or when I look around
And somehow feel that everybody else's lives are better
than mine, being stuck in a small computer room
trying to kill time.
I wonder...

Are you here God, when I don't know what I am doing
When I hated what I do or how I feel
Will you help me catch what life is throwing
And keep me here when I started to feel unreal?

Will you be dramatic with me?

**Note to self: Slap slap! LOL..