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~Take my 5 loaves and 2 fishes~

Semester has started and it the first 3 days were rough. I had a misunderstanding with a friend and I was too sensitive toward the words that she's saying. So, I ended up thinking about it a lot and feeling so confused and down, while she, being not as sensitive, did not realize that she's hurting my feelings. Maybe I was being a drama queen, maybe not. I was pondering a lot whether I should talk to her about it, or just keep quiet and supress my feelings. If I talked to her, I'm in danger of ruining the friendship, but if I keep quiet, I wouldn't know what she's really thinking. So, summoning all the courage that I have, I went to meet her and took a few minutes to talk to her. Surprisingly, after a few awkward moments and a huge hearty hug, the problem is somewhat settled and I'm so glad that I still have her as a friend. I guess, the journey of a true friendship must survive some bumps along the way. :)))

I'm in love with Corrinne May's latest album, "Beautiful Seed," especially this one song ,"5 loaves and 2 fishes" that truly resonates with what I'm going through right now. Hmmm... a bit disappointed with the title though, because there's no such thing as fishes, fish is already a plural form. Somehow, I feel that Corrinne is a lot like me. Well, let me change that to sound a little bit more humble; I am a lot like Corrinne ;). I can really relate to most of her songs and they encourage me a lot. And Corrinne's from my secondary school...Yayyyy..

Five Loaves and Two Fishes
Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen

was on his way to school

He heard a crowd of people laughing

and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening

to the stories of one man

He spoke with such wisdom,

even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quicklyt

he day turned to night

Everyone was hungry

but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox

at the little that he had

He wasn't sure what good it'd do

there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus

the kindness in His smile

and the boy cried out

with the trust of a child

he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

to feed them all"

I often think about that boy

when I'm feeling small

and I worry that the work I do

means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry

is a diamond in His hands

and every door that slams in my face

I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have

Oh Lord, you can work miracles

All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

I hope it's not too small

I trust in you

I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

no gift is too small