If changes are scary, why would you go with them? Because monotony is even scarier.
I am in the middle of trying to find a place to live for when I start a new job next year. And with Christmas coming, I feel like I'm the modern Mary, trying to knock on houses asking people if they have a spare room, only to find that all boards are full (or too expensive, or it does not have an aircon. Okay, I'm picky that way, probably pretty far from being Mary-like).
But, yeah, new year, new workplace! I'm getting excited as the date nears. This last month in STKIP Surya is a bittersweet one. I love the people, I love the students, I love the laugh fit sessions on lunch breaks, I love getting hugs from the younger kids, and I assure you, I'm not trying to kiss ass but I really like working for my bosses. I can tell you that I've been getting really lucky with having great bosses, even in the jobs I had before this. Last week, after all the paperworks had been submitted for resignation, I came to meet the big boss in his office, all awkward and nervous. To my surprise, we had a really good talk and he gave me a big bear hug in the end. So thankful for that.
So why move and create more drama? First of all, everybody loves drama; human being is especially designed for drama. Even more so for adults. These 10 year old girls who give me hugs almost daily won't cry and miss me. They will continue on playing jump ropes and snacking on their loots from Indomaret and go crazy on the soccer field, while I think of their arms wrapped around my waist. Drama, I tell you.
But aside from the obsession for a dramatic life, there's the obsession to grow. Up until I graduated from college, my life had been clearly marked with achievements and specific level-ups. Every year, there is something new: my mom would get my report card and I move up a grade, or I passed my unit operations class and became a senior at college. Everything was clear. After that, I entered grad school and it got murky. I didn't really know when to graduate, or how far should I do on my thesis. There's no system to tell me enough is enough, let alone telling me if I excelled. And if that was murky, then work is close to darkness. So, I learn to invent my own scale, and if I haven't grown much in a while, then I need to find a way fix that.
Growth, unfortunately, is not the only thing to consider. Meet money, my friends. This is when things get complicated, because not only humans are created for drama, we are created for greed. I am not going to say much about this because this is something everybody has to struggle personally. I'm just gonna leave you with this question: what do you work for? I've had myself confused and agitated trying to answer that.
So, in this final month, I'd like to soak up every bit of love I can still receive from my workplace. I've met many passionate people here that it's hard not to be passionate as well. I consider myself having 3 bosses, and I'm gonna leave you with the wise words they said when I told them I'm leaving.
Boss A: As long as this is what you really want.
Boss B: Our company has to learn to have a good system, because people will come and go. It's like MU or LA Lakers. MU will still be MU even when the players change.
Big boss: Do you have plans to marry?
I did not know until then, that the big boss was trying to set me up with somebody. I found it sweet and hilarious at the same time.
Cheers and happy advent!
I am in the middle of trying to find a place to live for when I start a new job next year. And with Christmas coming, I feel like I'm the modern Mary, trying to knock on houses asking people if they have a spare room, only to find that all boards are full (or too expensive, or it does not have an aircon. Okay, I'm picky that way, probably pretty far from being Mary-like).
But, yeah, new year, new workplace! I'm getting excited as the date nears. This last month in STKIP Surya is a bittersweet one. I love the people, I love the students, I love the laugh fit sessions on lunch breaks, I love getting hugs from the younger kids, and I assure you, I'm not trying to kiss ass but I really like working for my bosses. I can tell you that I've been getting really lucky with having great bosses, even in the jobs I had before this. Last week, after all the paperworks had been submitted for resignation, I came to meet the big boss in his office, all awkward and nervous. To my surprise, we had a really good talk and he gave me a big bear hug in the end. So thankful for that.
So why move and create more drama? First of all, everybody loves drama; human being is especially designed for drama. Even more so for adults. These 10 year old girls who give me hugs almost daily won't cry and miss me. They will continue on playing jump ropes and snacking on their loots from Indomaret and go crazy on the soccer field, while I think of their arms wrapped around my waist. Drama, I tell you.
But aside from the obsession for a dramatic life, there's the obsession to grow. Up until I graduated from college, my life had been clearly marked with achievements and specific level-ups. Every year, there is something new: my mom would get my report card and I move up a grade, or I passed my unit operations class and became a senior at college. Everything was clear. After that, I entered grad school and it got murky. I didn't really know when to graduate, or how far should I do on my thesis. There's no system to tell me enough is enough, let alone telling me if I excelled. And if that was murky, then work is close to darkness. So, I learn to invent my own scale, and if I haven't grown much in a while, then I need to find a way fix that.
Growth, unfortunately, is not the only thing to consider. Meet money, my friends. This is when things get complicated, because not only humans are created for drama, we are created for greed. I am not going to say much about this because this is something everybody has to struggle personally. I'm just gonna leave you with this question: what do you work for? I've had myself confused and agitated trying to answer that.
So, in this final month, I'd like to soak up every bit of love I can still receive from my workplace. I've met many passionate people here that it's hard not to be passionate as well. I consider myself having 3 bosses, and I'm gonna leave you with the wise words they said when I told them I'm leaving.
Boss A: As long as this is what you really want.
Boss B: Our company has to learn to have a good system, because people will come and go. It's like MU or LA Lakers. MU will still be MU even when the players change.
Big boss: Do you have plans to marry?
I did not know until then, that the big boss was trying to set me up with somebody. I found it sweet and hilarious at the same time.
Cheers and happy advent!
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